i arranged some appointment to phone with my old friend, someone that u trust so much (even more than im trust my self), we hardly to talk each others for a long time
but promise just a promise, the appointment was a hell, thought i try so hard to make it happend, but it didn't ... just like in the movie, im sitting at my desk with a pain in my heart and so pissed off. >_<
once again i should learn from the pain when i hope so much, theres only dissapointment in my ass
im still believing about a true friend, who gonna help u so much but im changing my approach, here im gonna explain :
i got one true friend (in my mind), that im gonna do my best for these true friend, no matter what, these true friend are more important than my self
but at the other end, me, my self at my 'true friend' point of view, wouldn't always gonna be he/she 'true friend' ... confused ??
here is the equations :
with f(x) as function of be a true friend
x is a parameter, can be my self or other people
so in my point of view, N - some of my friend that i devoted to be my true friend. My equation are :
f(N) --> results : N is become my true friend
mean while, in N point of view, there would be another x, could be A some old school mate of N, or maybe B, N's neighbor. So N equation would be :
f(A) --> results : A is N true friend
so, after some annoying math, the results would be:
"my true friend 'true friend' wouldn't be me"
after getting enough understanding of this useful equation, i realize that even we couldn't expect soo much from our true friend, since we the one who devoted our true friend. They at the other end, wouldn't always devoted us as they 'true friend'
this is life ... so suck ... but its okay maybe i had another x who devoted my as he/she true friend, im gonna do my best to find these x ... if im luck, maybe these x would be my next true friend
are u my 'x' one ? ^_^
